Earlier this evening I called a sister N who I had been trying to do some "evening revival" with her but didn't succeed in prior two weeks. Finally today, it was a good timing. We started to empty ourselves and turn to the Lord. We pray-read a verse, had a bit fellowship, and prayed for each other. I sensed the Lord was caring us right at the moment we prayed.
Sister N is busy. Since she came to this locality, I didn't really have a chance to read with her or pray with her, but the Lord always put her in my mind. After today's prayer time, I got to know that she's just a sister who left home for study and misses home. I finally got to know her situation instead of saying hi in the meeting. That was a good time, and we both opened to the Lord and opened to one another.
Then the Lord asked me "It was sweet, wasn't it?", then the next was "Would it be wonderful that you can do this the rest of your life?" I wasn't sure whether it was the Lord's calling, or it was just me thinking of this. If it was the Lord's calling, do You want me to serve full-time?
I remember on the way home from uni, I was still thinking about my visa issues, and the contract with my government. Anyways, I don't think I can make it to the training in London. So I leave this issue to Him- if you really want me to serve Your full-time, You have to figure out a way.
It was sweet shepherding people, but if You don't open up the way, I will not be able to do anything, neither. I'm here again, ask for Your leading, Lord. Your move in Europe is where I belong to. However, the means and ways to stay here- it is Your responsibility to figure it out. I'm just telling You that I'm here.
