Missed out an opportunity today

Came to uni for searching for other scholarships and realised I missed out some good opportunities. Those were not advertised online so I wasn't able to access the info.

I feel frustrated.

However, I thank God that at least He's the someone who's able to understand me and be able to comfort me. Anytime, and in any situations, I'm able to come to Him.

Great is Thy faithfulness

This hymn suddenly came to me today. Interestingly, it had been a long while I hadn't sung this hymn.

I'm still struggling with my funding and I have spent a long time today searching for new opportunities which I can apply for. Then in the evening, this hymn came to me and I simply started with "Great is Thy faithfulness, Great is Thy faithfulness". I couldn't remember exactly how this song goes so I checked it online and started to sing it.

O God my Father! How sweet when I called Him "my Father".

In my lifetime so far, I have thought thousands of times that, if I had a dad, my life can be so much easier. However, when I sang "O God my Father", I immediately sensed a deeper presence of God.
He's my Father, who "changest not and there's no shadow of turning with Him". Such a wonderful One, is my Father.

It was sweet, wasn't it?

Earlier this evening I called a sister N who I had been trying to do some "evening revival" with her but didn't succeed in prior two weeks. Finally today, it was a good timing. We started to empty ourselves and turn to the Lord. We pray-read a verse, had a bit fellowship, and prayed for each other. I sensed the Lord was caring us right at the moment we prayed.

Sister N is busy. Since she came to this locality, I didn't really have a chance to read with her or pray with her, but the Lord always put her in my mind. After today's prayer time, I got to know that she's just a sister who left home for study and misses home. I finally got to know her situation instead of saying hi in the meeting. That was a good time, and we both opened to the Lord and opened to one another.

Then the Lord asked me "It was sweet, wasn't it?", then the next was "Would it be wonderful that you can do this the rest of your life?" I wasn't sure whether it was the Lord's calling, or it was just me thinking of this. If it was the Lord's calling, do You want me to serve full-time?

I remember on the way home from uni, I was still thinking about my visa issues, and the contract with my government. Anyways, I don't think I can make it to the training in London. So I leave this issue to Him- if you really want me to serve Your full-time, You have to figure out a way.

It was sweet shepherding people, but if You don't open up the way, I will not be able to do anything, neither. I'm here again, ask for Your leading, Lord. Your move in Europe is where I belong to. However, the means and ways to stay here- it is Your responsibility to figure it out. I'm just telling You that I'm here.

To mediate and to muse on

Psalms 77:12 And I will mediate on all that You have done And muse on Your doings.

(In Hebrew)
12 וְהָגִיתִי בְכָל־פָּעֳלֶךָ וְּבַעֲלִילֹותֶיךָ 1אָשִׂיחָה
שיח, verb, talk, meditate, speak, complain, pray, commune, muse, declare (12-9).

Having been a Christian for a long while, this verse to me always means I will "think" what God is and has done to me. However, looking back the Hebrew bible, the meaning becomes clear. "Mediate" and "muse" are sharing the same word in this verse. It means much more than simply to think or to consider, but more of something "audible"- our talking, speaking, complaining, praying, communing, and declaring Him. 

Praise the Lord! The way to contact God isn't just some thoughts in quietness or wondering in my mind, but to actually have conversations with the Lord. How amazing! This is the way we touch Him and enjoy Him.   

The kingdom of God

This morning I was randomly pray-reading the verse in Romans 14:17

For the kingdom of God is not eating and drinking, but righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.

I've come across this verse for a lot of times, but while I was reading it this time, I asked a question to myself - "why it is not eating and drinking?" because another verse came to me. 

The Son of Man came eating and drinking; and they say, Behold, a gluttonous man and a drunkard, a friend of tax collectors and sinners. Yet wisdom is justified by her works.(Matt. 11:19)

You work with God by a life

Hi Kate,

It's okay to be a bit down and sad. You know you're doing your best among all the struggles. The Lord is faithful, and He'll open the way.

Thank the Lord that this hymn came to me on the way home:

Desperate to consecrate for God's purpose

Enjoying the message on the way to uni.

Sometimes the environment makes you desperate to cry out to God. Hannah was desperately praying to God for a child. She had no choice but consecrated herself to God. The result was Samuel- the one who was produced for God's purpose. (1 Samuel life-study)

God needs people who are desperate and then consecrate themselves absolute to Him. This makes us one with Him so He has a way in us to carry out His purpose.

Praise the Lord! :)