Burden and prayer (1)- Discharge the burden by prayers

Using my lunch break to read a short portion of this booklet which was written by Watchman Nee.

I'm reminded that all of us, to some degree, have received a burden from God. The burden might be faint at the beginning, but we need to continue the fire by our faithfully praying to Him. In addition, we can only discharge the burden by prayers. When God gives us a burden, the burden itself is the manifestation of God's heart's desire.

Oh, how can we not pray? Lord, cause me to pray for the fulfilment of your economy. Make me your faithful and prudent servant who wait on You by the cooperation of my prayers.

Our interceding for others is according to who we are not what we have

Genesis 20:17 And Abraham prayed to God; and God healed  Abimelech and his wife and his female servants, so that they bore children. 

This is an interesting chapter that reveals Abraham's hidden sins and weaknesses. However, I'm encouraged that although Abraham fails in protecting his wife before the king of Gerar, God still exercised His sovereign hands to take care of Sarah and Abraham. Regardless of Abraham's lack of full trust in God and lost the enjoyment of Grace (typified by Sarah), God restored His testimony of Faith (typified by Abraham) and Grace with His sovereignty. 

Another thing that inspired me is verse 17. Since I'm still sort of suffering in my own situations, I don't know whether I'm qualified to pray for others who are in the same situations like me. For example, I'm still searching for funding to meet my need, but many times I'm put in a situation that I have to pray for other people's need. Times like this make me wonder: I'm not yet walking out from my own situation, am I qualified or have such a faith in me to pray for others with my faith? 

Jehovah's coming in produced Issac

Recently started a bible study challenge from the beginning of Old Testament- Genesis.

Start from chapter 12, it becomes obvious that God had a calling to Abram, and Abram set up an altar and worshipped God.

Recently I'm really bothered by the matter of God's calling. It is due to my difficult environment, and I've been disappointed several times. I don't know the Lord's clear leading, or more precisely, I become less confident what the Lord wish to lead me. Yesterday, another scholarship has been rejected. I cried and prayed. It has been a long process to me to try to acquire a funding, and my stress level has increased. The stress is so subtle that I only realised that it affected my digestion system and has been causing some little problems within me. On the one hand, I have tried my best but I really don't know where is the open door. On the other hand, I want to give up and just discontinue my study although I have been believing that it was the Lord's leading for me to come to the UK.