He's working behind the scenes

It seems like I haven't announced that I've got scholarship to study at another university. I'm grateful that God has arranged this for me. I know for sure that the scholarship was released from God, but of course, it was me who learned how to cooperate with Him by much prayer.

Since the time I arrived Cardiff, I knew that there would be a shortage of funding for me to complete this doctoral degree. During that time, I still tried a lot of things by my own efforts and sought ways to obtain funding. Unfortunately, there was nothing for me. After completing my academic year 2015-2016 for another master course, I realised that I needed to seek for scholarship from different higher education institutions.


I have to say that the situation was really impossible for me to acquire funding. First, the matter of Brexit had caused a lot of issues. We used to have some funding in my current university. However, after Brexit, the Welsh government as well as university have experienced a great funding cut. I blamed on the Lord for whatever had happened, but inside of me I knew that I had to depend on the Lord. So I started trying charities but ended up applying for new programmes in different universities. Brexit also brought in the atmosphere of the resistance to foreigners which the foreigners might be less favourable in the employers/universities' eyes. Having said this, I knew that I had no choices but trusting in the Lord.

I'm grateful that the Word of God had saved me greatly while I experienced some sort of disappointment and stress. Since last winter, I started reading the Bible with young people, and that encouraged me to build up a habit to contact the Lord daily. I had had more conversations with the Lord than ever before. I knew the Lord was dealing with me.

Finally, in May 2017, I reached a point that I couldn't relax anymore. I had tried many institutions and interviews but nothing worked out. Sometimes I got hopes, but they failed me again and again. I knew I had no choices. I had to fast and pray otherwise my burden was too heavy for me to bear. In May I started my fast-prayers. Every time I knelt before Him, I got comforted and somehow I had the assurance that things will work out.

Things still didn't change but I still sensed that things will work out for me for His purpose. I knew that my soul was still at unease so I still knelt down for more prayers. Now when I look back, I know it was the Lord's way to deal with my soul. He doesn't want me to live according to my non-transformed soul life so he was training me in a way that I shouldn't live according to what are visible to me but according to the living faith in me.

So, things worked out. I'm going to another university. There are still things ready to be sorted out but I know that the Lord is definitely working behind the scenes even though I don't see Him at the moment.