Longing for a deeper union with You

My Saviour,

I reckoned the reason that I had no rest is because of my analysing of a thing that bothers me.

I turned my eyes from the Lord and focused on myself. There is where the trouble comes. I realised that I was so busy in my soul wondering and analysing instead of coming to Him for such a rest.

I love Him, I love my Saviour.
I seek for the deeper union with Him.
I then had a sense that I should utterly give up myself. Giving up all the strength from my own self, and render and rest in Him completely. This is my recognition that He is my Lord, and He provides whatever I may need.

This morning, I come to the books written by Madame Guyon. These are "Sweet Smelling Myrrh" and "A short and easy method of prayer". These books helped me seek for a deeper union with the Lord within instead of the outward work alone- I've been actively outwardly, or, been busy in my soul.

These methods of prayers are so intuitive and simple. This echoes my deep longing to pray like this but somehow my soul tells me that I should pray in a certain way in order to please the Lord. Oh Lord, what a mistake. We can learn all the methods to approach You, but what You want the most is to mingle Yourself with us. Oh Lord, how much I have been grieving Your heart.

Gain my heart fully today so I can seek such a union with You. You can thus be satisfied.