Apart from taking a break from my daily routine, one of my purposes to have this trip to Eastbourne is actually to hold a burial for something. I collected some things and ready to burn them and bury them in Eastbourne. This is my offering Issac to the Lord. I'm not trying to make it religious. However, I realised that I didn't take a decent action to make it serious enough so I still struggle. I had already offered my "Issac" to Him, but I realised that I need to take a serious action in order to really "cross the red sea and never go back".
I wrote something on the back of my document, and turned to the front and gave a kiss to it. I know it was my treasure, but it had been bothering me for so long. I gave it a kiss and burned it along with something else that will remind me of it.
Yes, I burned it. I declared that it is no longer my idol and I can move on and love Him with my ENTIRE BEING. I didn't know it affected me that much until the Lord exposed this matter to me again, again, and again. I know I have to deal with it so I chose a station that is far enough to carry out this.
Eventually, it became ashes. It took quite a number of matches to complete it. The process was long, and the material was hard to be burned. It portrayed my struggles to totally deal with it as well. It's all clear now.
And I left it here in the sea.
Never see you again and I will be moving on now.
Lord, I am for Your economy, and make me a person who seeks Your kingdom and righteousness. You know my need, Lord, and I wish not to hold onto anything but go on without cares.
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